LIFE JOURNAL

2011-12-13T04:34:00.000+07:00

people change..

there is some kind of mysterious sense in this, and as the fact says that no one would change after they hit 21, this sounds kinda old already.

are people really changing?

maybe not.. maybe it's just their behavior toward you that changes. or is it?
just how do you feel when you're asked to think about some friends of old days and you think of someone, but they never did the same?
maybe they're INDEED your friends, however you're not theirs.
or with someone you love, as you think you're trusting each other, and the matter of fact, you're the only one who believes in that and do the silly thing so-called 'trusting'?

all the stupid stuffs..

it's a matter of time before you're forgotten, even about how you ever existed in this world.
they will all like, "garry.. ahh garry.. ahh really. do i know him?"

somewhat, after i've thought everything through, i just knew everything they said was of a lie.

maybe i just think too much.. maybe..

and now i can't believe i start talking about this again.
i thought i would just act it up like how they did.
but i can't. i just can't.

2011-12-13T04:27:00.000+07:00

"nothing good happens after 2 a.m. when it hits 2 a.m., just go to sleep."
-how i met your mother.

2011-12-13T03:55:00.000+07:00

are we not trusting each other anymore?

ahh.. seems like it.

2011-12-13T03:50:00.001+07:00

and now i realize

lies.. they're all lies.

2011-07-11T00:43:00.002+07:00

"I hated myself because I had no abilities.

And I couldn't stop myself from admiring those who had them.

Mommy..

Does being a Level Zero mean that you're defective?"

Saten Ruiko - Toaru Kagaku no Railgun

2011-06-27T15:50:00.003+07:00

i don't know how..

how to show you my attention..

i've been thinking, and i realize that i never did anything good for you.

i couldn't give you promises like the other men would.

i couldn't do things to please you.

perhaps i'm like taking you for granted.

i'm the only one who's pleased.

i'm sorry..

but it's not like i don't care.

really..

i've been thinking of how to show you that i really care.

but nothing comes in mind.

and now i'm scared of that day.. the day where your heart will rapidly change, because your doubt rises, as my love seems covered by my own uselessness.

i'm sorry. i'm a good-for-nothing.

but believe me. my love to you never will change.

2011-06-07T01:20:00.001+07:00

Believe in God and yourself. Never depends on anybody.

Why? Because in the time of darkness, even your shadow will leave you.

2011-06-06T21:00:00.002+07:00

from the most important secrets that no other people are worth enough to hear, until the most unnecessary things that aren't worth enough to share; everything..

i can tell you everything.

2011-05-01T02:20:00.003+07:00

Dashboard Confessional - Even Now

Even now I can smell your clothes, freshly from the wash,
Still hot from the dryer.
Even now I can smell your skin, as I wrap you in a towel,
Lay you on the bed, and try to love you.
Even now I can feel your arms, I can feel your breasts,
I can hear your songs

And I always can find you again

Even now I can feel your hand, gently over mine,
With almost no weight at all.
Even now I can feel your eyes, watch me as I strum,
Much too late at night.
Even now I can see you smile, I can hear you hum,
I can hear you sing.

And I always can find you again

Even in the dark of night
Even in the lowest light
Even as the world outside
Is spinning
And its spinning.

Even now I can feel your hair blow across my cheek, as we sit in one of two chairs
Even now I can feel your face restin' on my chest, wrestling for sleep and failing at it
Even now I can see you sleep, I can see you dream, I can see you fly

And I always can find you again
And I always can find you again

2011-04-20T23:12:00.002+07:00

even the clueless heart knows when to be happy..

when i see you.

when i'm with you.

when we share things.

when we share laughter.

when we joke around.

when we hold hands.

when we hug.

when we know each other's secrets.

when you call my name.

when i see how clumsy a person can be (it's you). :P

when a day starts with you and ends with you.

when we argue.

when i feel like needing you.

when i know something..

when i know..

when i love you.

2011-04-10T20:56:00.004+07:00

even the other months can't be this precious.

a month with you can be so addictive.

as this page is hardly updated now.

i don't want to waste my time here.

well, many things happened.

good things, bad things.

we've been through it all.

i came over.

i put it in.

you saw and you smiled.

we dated.

we walked together.

we held hands.

we hugged.

we laughed.

we smiled.

we joked around.

there was a time we had bad feeling.

i made mistakes.

you forgave.

we made up.

then we looked at each other.

we felt silly.

we had fun.

we did this and that.

and everything.

and then.. remember how we just smiled when they saw the marks on my neck? :p

a month like this is addictive.

and this will go on, for another month, and another month, and another month.

and a year.. and maybe forever.

this is us.

and this is how we should always be.

2011-03-16T18:00:00.000+07:00

2011-03-16T17:00:00.004+07:00

there's so many unexpected things happened before my eyes.

and i don't know why it turned to become so bad.

is it really bad?

does it even concern us?

like hell i know.

what i get is this uneasy feeling about what's happening and what's going to happen.

it's not like i don't believe.. even if it really happens that way.

it's just that i don't want to believe.

what i know is that as long as it doesn't concern us.. no.. even if it concerns us, it actually doesn't go this way.

or maybe it's safe to say, it shouldn't have gone this way.

what do i know? what do you know? what does everyone know?

is it best if we just fake our smile?

no no!

it shouldn't have gone this way.

there's actually nothing bad about this.

then what's the big deal?

say if this is actually happening, then the blame is mine.

but this is just wrong.

it shouldn't have happened from the very first place.

perhaps i was right.

silence is gold after all.

i've talked too much.

and i guess i was too hard-headed that i couldn't let a debate to be put to an end.

if it really is about us.. then it can't help.

everyone has their own right to think someone their own way.

if it really is that big a deal.. if it really is...

if everyone believes it is.. then it can't help either.

should this end well.. well enough..

please..

after all, it shouldn't have gone this way.

i just don't want to believe that way.

what i believe is that we assume too much..

2011-03-13T19:37:00.001+07:00

-130311-

a very big present before my sleep tonight.

thank you for today. :)

guess i'm gonna have a very nice dream. :P

2011-03-11T22:20:00.000+07:00

our first contact..

and she did it in a very cute way. :D

she grabbed my jacket, pulled me down a little and pop!

ahh how sweet that was.

.....
should i just make this blog private? :P

2011-03-07T03:49:00.000+07:00

i won't tell you anything but this.

"don't worry"

2011-02-28T05:30:00.002+07:00

i'm trying.
there are always opportunities.
but every time it comes; every time we're alone, i'm choked.
it's like devil always shuts my mouth.
those words are always left unsaid.

i've never been this nervous..
oh God..
i don't know why.

i just feel weird when i'm with you, you know, just you and me.
ahh..
we've ever been through this.
but that is totally a different matter.

what's the big deal, i ask myself.
i don't know why.
actually, it's been a while since i last did this, head - straight.
i wonder if i was able to do that again. urgh..

and.. what we're supposed to do after that?
look at each other like idiots?
continue what we've left?
cry like a crybaby? (oh this one actually disgusts me)
i don't think i'm ready with those and other stupid possibilities.
there will be silence, yeah!
there will be silence i bet.

ahh.. i think i'm off the limit.
i can't think clearly enough right now.
my task is way too much to handle.
i just need some sleep for now.

P. S. i'm trying. i really am.

2011-02-26T23:52:00.002+07:00

i really don't know when to start.
i don't know how to start.
i guess i've understood how he's feeling.

2011-02-24T04:16:00.003+07:00

guess i can't be free from embarrassment, eh?

so are we now that "a little more"?
or should i make the move before that?

i know i can't be sweet.
this is actually a stupid answer to ask.
but..

2011-02-23T22:32:00.002+07:00

right now, i'm abandoning my tasks, seeing how funny this has become.
i can't stop smiling.
don't you think this is just like our friends? it's just that we're doing this so straightforwardly while they did it poetically.
this is embarrassing, yes.
well, can't help at all. :P

i see.
and i'm happy to know.
this comforts me.
but this imperfect me never give enough.
i doubt this will be satisfying.
sorry..

and..i'm not even half of a romantic one; i don't know how to try, i don't know when to try.
this is irritating actually.
but when this ends..
maybe.. a little more.

2011-02-22T19:37:00.002+07:00

i pay all my extra attention in every single words written there.
it both got me laughing and wondering.
haha how i hope it's all about me.
err.. is it?
because you know, it's such an embarrassment either way; to be so confident when it's not me, and of course to be put in such embarrassing state if it's really me!

don't you think it's a little bit unusual?
i love how we are though.
or maybe.. a little more?

2011-02-19T19:18:00.002+07:00

is it possible?

is it possible?

is it possible?

is it possible?

is it possible?

is it possible?

is it possible?

i wonder..

2011-02-15T00:25:00.003+07:00

it's been a while since you was last treated that sweet, eh garry?

although we're friends, i never expected this much.
i'm happy, yes.
happy that God can't even tell.

it did rain like there's no tomorrow.
but it seems that the rainbow has started to show.

but still, is this right?
i.. don't know.

2011-02-15T00:05:00.002+07:00

just when i thought my valentine's day would be blue all day, you came at the very last moment, right before day changed its face.
that's a very sweet gift you gave me, sweeter than the chocolate i gave you indeed.
i guess my valentine's day wasn't that bad after all.
thank you. :)

but who knows if this is the right thing to do?

2011-02-10T16:02:00.001+07:00

what they need is a winner, not a loser.
that's why they don't need me.
not at all.

2011-02-09T02:09:00.003+07:00

OMG you absolutely need to hear this song on your headphones!
Yui's cute voice to your left ear and Mio's beautiful voice to your right ear.
how kawaii!
K-ON! absolutely rocks!

2011-02-08T22:15:00.001+07:00

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you,
Where every single word I said
Would come out insightful or brave, or smooth, or charming
And you'd want to call me..
And I
Would be there every time
You need me;
I'd be there every time..

But for now,
I'll look
So longingly..
Waiting

For you to want me
For you to need me
For you to notice me

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you,
Where every single word I said
Would come out insightful or brave, or smooth, or charming
And you'd want to call me..

And I
Would be there every time
You need me;
I'd be there every time..

But for now,
I'll look
So longingly
Waiting

For you to want me
For you to need me
For you to notice me...

2011-02-08T16:33:00.001+07:00

problems are coming like there's no tomorrow.
sigh..
just why the hell is this happening?!

2011-02-05T14:48:00.001+07:00

new update : new photos on gallery *yellow bookmark*

2011-02-05T01:27:00.002+07:00

my mind is going wild once again.
what i'm thinking.. has no end.
it's always between hoping and giving up.

the demon always whispers 'you still live this pathetic life, eh? can't you get tired?'
well i'm tired.
so what?
it's not like i have a choice.

this is what i was born to be. to suffer.
yeah.. that's why i exist.
to suffer.
to suffer all the possible pain.
and no one can surely change that.
no one.

2011-02-02T19:54:00.001+07:00

tasks dominate my life again..
time to fight back!

2011-02-02T17:35:00.002+07:00

in one night, secrets were told.
we were the same.
we didn't know what this was.
we felt weird.
we talked about it, but we didn't understand.
we tried to let it flow, what it's stuck right at where it's left.
we knew that this wasn't right.
it seemed impossible, but it's not like it's not possible.
yeah, we shared.
we believed.

2011-01-29T03:50:00.003+07:00

i see i've been an asshole all this time.
so this is what i deserve after all.
now i know..
now i know..

2011-01-29T00:25:00.002+07:00

is this giving up or moving on?
i shall not know.
the choice is up ahead.
but i choose not to choose.
for every time i choose, i lose.
i don't know what's right and what's wrong now.

ahh.. how i envy them.
you don't know what it's like to be me.

2011-01-28T20:11:00.000+07:00

silence is gold.

should i just keep silent?

i've been talking too much after all.

you.. don't live a life

2011-01-28T18:14:00.002+07:00

i should be honest.

i envy them.

they have all the things i have to live without.

they are happy.

they are loved.

it's all about them.

because i don't live a life.

because there's no story to tell.. not about me.

when you don't know what hit you..

2011-01-27T21:42:00.005+07:00

the small talk we just had, grandma, broke my heart to pieces. you changed a lot. you can't talk properly now, but you still laughed when you heard my voice. when you knew all your words would be spoken incorrectly, you gave your best to tell me that you missed me.

my gosh..

the hint of these new tears were sharp I tried to choke them back. you know i miss you too. but i bear not said a word, i would cry right away. i'm sorry.

but i love you grandma. i really do. thanks for taking care of this useless guy. i can't ask for any more..

get well soon.

it's gonna be new!

2011-01-22T01:20:00.003+07:00

seems like i'm gonna change the looks of this blog later.
and the content as well.
i've finally found what i'm supposed to fill this blog with.
let's see if i can make it.

keep holding on

2011-01-07T03:15:00.003+07:00

i've just done reading one of my abandoned-for-the-whole-year-novels at 3 this morning. and yeah it's awesome i must say..
i mean it indirectly taught me so many things.
there are lives from chaos. sounds weird, but well, it says some things come from chaos.
i've known that, but i just didn't take that so seriously.
but yeah, it's true.
when you know your life is about to collapse, you're actually facing the new life.
so ironic. but yeah, you get your new life by then.

and the lesson i take on my own is that the happy-ending-life i'm looking for is on page 944. and i'm still on 400 something, half way there.
so no wonder i have so many problems.
yup, this is where problems start to get worse, isn't it?
what i have to do is to keep turning the page, and bam! i'll be there.

just when i think life's being unfair to me, i just haven't reached the last page of the book.
i know the story is fiction, but hell yeah, the main character's life is far far worse than mine.
he keeps holding on, waiting for me to read until the final chapter where his life has once again been perfect.
that's what i'll be doing for sure.
just keep holding on. i know this much is true.
i hope everything would be alright.

angel beats

2010-12-13T23:24:00.002+07:00

and hey. before i forget, i'd like to share the anime i'd been watching.

well, i don't give either the video or the download link.

sorry..

just look by yourself okay?

but i tell you, it's worth watching.

the title is "angel beats"

and i really love the songs "ichiban no takaramono" and "brave song" on that anime.

same here, worth listening. :D

here is "ichiban no takaramono"

copy and create

2010-12-13T21:34:00.009+07:00

it's been a while and this is me, writing a new post for my blog during UAS.

this is the only "time" when i have some "time".

other "time" can't be really called as time.

that's how it works in arch though. you're free by the time you hit the exam.

other than that, you will see endless tasks.

well, i only wanna share some of my works.

warning: they are not as nice as they seem. for one who has weak stomach and unbearable mouth (that you laugh with) may skip this for further good. thank you.

so here they are.

the monochrome version of the painting i posted before. (the unfinished one)

don't you think that the car is too big? well, me too.

i seriously dislike my work below. it sucks like hell! but well, that's my work after all. so i posted it.

the same as my post before.

the unnecessary leaf drawing.

gazebo

the farnsworth house

again. suck in painting.

my first design. the maket is the pictures above, the third to the sixth picture.

my second design. i like this way better than the previous one. although it's still not really good.

Renai Circulation

2010-10-23T12:54:00.000+07:00

i'm loving this song!

it's just awesomely cute, lol!

Vote

2010-10-16T14:47:00.002+07:00

please vote for them, my friends. just 'like' the photo, but before that, add the account 'Rapid Medan' first. thank you. :D

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1662863056087&set=a.1657085951663.90497.1372551834

tasks before design

2010-10-07T19:10:00.007+07:00

after a few weeks to months i studied the architecture of UNPAR, I'd done so many tasks that cut my sleeping time.

I collected it and just now, I received them back.

so I took a chance to capture them all..

well, I'd like to share, but I tell you, they are no good at all.

so here's the tasks I'd been doing all the time.

letters? words? sentences? this is architecture? well, i was supposed to make it look like a font. but well, that's the best i was WILLING to do. lol. :P

you confused with this? well, you should be. i, myself, don't even consider it as the one below.

different eh? :P

everyone knows, they're chairs.

two of these stuffs are the time-wasting tasks.

and so are these..

this one I've shown you on the previous post.

and these things, are they important?

(just done coloring the first tree. 3 more to go.)

and hell yeah, it sucks.

i am so lame in watercolor..

...

well okay, everything's bad, i'm lame in everything.

people with no face. freaky, eh?

just done half of it. and i don't like it. it does look lame. told you I'm lame. ahh shit! how i hate color!

I've never been good in color. not even crayon or color pencil or whatever that is used to color.

well, that's all.

they are pretty pathetic, eh?

I don't understand just what I've been learning all this time.

you should see my friends' works.

and my lecturers'.

and you will be amused, i believe.

but, well since this is my blog, they got no chance to fill this post with their works. lol.

and after this, we will do design.

yeay!

no more copying. :D

the water colours

2010-10-04T17:48:00.002+07:00

hey, guess what!

i bought another "toy" for architecture.

the water colours!

and hell yeah, it is also expensive like the previous one.

are they teaching us how to spend money or what?!

none of the equipments is cheap.

i can see green papers flow out from my wallet like hell!

but well, i like this stuff.

but don't you think it's kinda like the make up equipment? :/

dedicated to Stephanie Candra

2010-10-02T11:38:00.004+07:00

I love this song and I want to dedicate this song to Stephanie Candra.

next time, i'll be the one who sings it. :P

if you wish. lol. :D

enjoy..

(the real music actually starts at 1:18)

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well, I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In Eden, Paris, and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

first 'maket' updated

2010-09-26T13:22:00.004+07:00

the update of my previous post about "maket".

i was asked to remake my maket because of bla bla and bla.
and it's done.

here is it.

and the final touch..

Happy Birthday Stephanie Candra

2010-09-26T09:14:00.005+07:00

I exclusively wish Stephanie Candra a very happy birthday!
may all good wishes come true and existing things grow better and better.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR. <3
I love you.

first 'maket'

2010-09-15T11:19:00.003+07:00

ahh at last, blogger..
it's not that i didn't want to blog, it's that i didn't have time to blog!
my tasks are way way too #%$@^&!!!
they aren't difficult actually, they are time-spending.
time-wasting actually.

but well, i should be proud of my own work.
here is one of them.

my first "maket"..

ironic eh?

spending my sleeping time to make this..

guess i'm hitting my bed now.

Spiderman 4 (still rumor)

2010-09-03T17:04:00.002+07:00

I can't wait to see the next sequel of spiderman, folks!

some say the villains will be three and here they are.

carnage, black cat, and lizard.

oh man, this is goddamn cool!

the one I love the most is carnage.

especially the scene where spiderman, venom and carnage will fight each other.

well, most of the pictures are cartoons, i know. it's still rumor after all.

and hey, there is spider-carnage costume.

and the lizard.

and the black cat of course.

Love The Way You Lie

2010-08-31T00:46:00.003+07:00

:( :(

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before I'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind at his back
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
In Your words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fuckin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed
And set this house on fire

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie

mr. worry-head

2010-08-24T22:38:00.004+07:00

hello mr. worry-head, do you know that you have over-worried about something too much?

yes, i'm talking to myself.

and yes, i do worry too much.

you see, she and i haven't had a proper contact recently because both of us have been so busy.

i got tons of works to be done from college, and she's having her school exam.

and yes i tell you, i DO worry.

unreasonable worries actually, because just like i told you, i got tons of works to be done from college, and she's having her school exam.

do i say it right?

i got tons of works to be done from college, and she's having her school exam.

and hell yeah!

I've known the reason why we haven't had a proper contact, it's so obvious, isn't it?

but i just can't stop worrying, i don't know why.

maybe it's just because i feel so lonely. :(

i always stop worrying just when i got her message. it's like i'm relieved just by having news from her.

we also haven't had any calls. ohh just how much i miss her voice, her jokes (well, she doesn't share jokes actually, but i always find everything she says funny. :D), her laughter (this is the best), her stories, and her being so kind to me.

now that i miss you more and more. :(

guess i'm off.

see you on Christmas.

I'm lucky, aren't I?

2010-08-18T19:08:00.003+07:00

hey!

think that i blogged much recently. :D

since when, eh?

ahh. since i started falling for her i guess. *grin*

she's just so perfect that i can't stop admiring her. *big smile*

but eh, i got some story to tell you.

*curhat*

lol.

you know, since i published my relationship with her on facebook, it has been so many GUYS that added me as friends, more than 10 perhaps, just to know who the lucky guy was. :D

and yes, i know she's so popular and that's why i'm so grateful that she chose me.

i don't know why, but actually i always think that i'm not worth that much.

......

and hey, about my univ, i have my first day today.

and it's only 2 hours class and we're all done. *big grin*

but hell yeah, tomorrow is hell.

8 hours non-stop in the studio to draw!

just what the hell are we going to draw?!

this is just insane!

and i must arrive there at 6.30 without being late, even a minute!

just thinking that makes head hurt. :S

by the way this is my "toy" in architecture for these 4 years or more.

it is just so damn expensive!

i must take a really good care of it. :D

i'm off..

i'm late! i'm late!

2010-08-17T08:09:00.002+07:00

oh this is just great!

i woke up late this morning and i missed today's ospek, which means i missed all the information for tomorrow class.

and who knows how my mentors will act because of this?

today is the independent day and somehow important for the univ that all of the new students join the ceremony.

and here i am, at home, writing my blog.

when i know i'm here, I've known that ALL is not possible anymore.

ohh just what is the consequence of this?!

can anyone tell me what to do?

well, i told my mentor via sms that i was sick and i was unable to come and join.

and no, that's not a lie.

actually i'd woken up at 5 but then i felt my head spinning. it hurt a lot. i was unable to move even a step and i accidentally slept for another 2 hours. i thought maybe i could regain my consciousness if i slept for about 15 minutes, but it seemed that even 2 hours weren't enough.

my head still hurts a bit and my sight is kinda blur.

(oh just how long I've been wondering why i can still write my blog at a moment like this)

i really hope this didn't bring bad things to me.

it's more than enough..

i'm so damn done!

break my heart

2010-08-12T21:23:00.003+07:00

hey! i was going to write today's story about how sad i was until she text me.

my mood was then pumped up, and so that's it. lol..

nah, kidding you.

umm. remember about me telling you about how fun the univ would be?

well, it's a no no.

no fun at all.

not my senior.. it's the ospek thingy!

i was told that the ospek would be so much fun but in reality, it was like, urghh!

it's no one's fault actually, i just got the wrong teammates.

the ospek itself could be fun, but my teammates and i just couldn't make it as it should be.

then well..

it's just like another formal event, after all.

ah well. i don't really care.

and by the way, hey!

what's wrong with you?

you seem troubled, yet you couldn't tell me.

you know, it breaks my heart.. to see you in trouble, but can't help at all.

i really wish i could read your mind.

this way, i don't need to worry anymore.

but i guess you don't want your mind to be read. lol.

i love you. please be good, okay?

God bless us all.

see you on Christmas.

Ospek

2010-08-11T22:39:00.001+07:00

tomorrow is the day..

ospek ospek ospek!!

oh God help me..

another great day!

2010-08-11T13:03:00.002+07:00

at last, there is an internet access for my notebook.

at last, I can blog again!

yeay!

well, actually it's possible to blog from my mobile phone, but why bother?

blogging from notebook is far more simple. :D

and hey guys, good news and bad news, choose..

bad news?

I'm going to start my univ tomorrow and yes, it sucks.

*thinking*

maybe i'll say that if i haven't met my seniors couples of days before.

but i'm so glad that i met them and we're all having fun together.

now entering the univ seems fun!

haha..

yahh, no bad news actually. :P

the good news?

the good news is that i don't have any bad news and yes, i know what i'm saying sucks.

*big smile*

it's been so long since I'm so excited in writing blog so please excuse me. :D

so why am i so excited?

here is the other good news.

*whisper*

got that?

hehe..

well actually i'm waiting for christmas so excitedly because i promised someone that i'm going to go back to medan and be her santa. :D

and i really can't wait to see her and give her my best hug (haha) because i really really miss her.

and you know, she is the sweetest person i've ever met!

and i'm really happy that i'm hers now.

*smile*

she gives me anything more than i ever expect and that is just so damn great.

guess i can't stop thanking you.

thanks.. :))

...

2010-07-30T16:20:00.002+07:00

these will sure remind me of her.
*sigh*
but i guess, she'll never care about that.
she doesn't need me anymore.

hair cut

2010-07-28T18:41:00.002+07:00

just had my hair cut.
and yes, it's terribly awful.
but i don't really care.
i just want to start a new life; well, i start with my hair. :D

see? i told you it's awful. :D

I'm leaving, and... that

2010-07-27T00:16:00.005+07:00

here I am.
to write another part of my life, just as usual.
but today i don't bring good news.
it's been a while since i had my last good things.
i know no one likes bad news.
i know no one cares if i got bad news.
sigh.
yeah, this blog is just for me, myself.
so don't even bother. (no one will, yeah)

this whacking stuff i've just had give me too much pain for sure.
guess what, we broke up.
and hell yeah, it's miserable!
it's not like i can say '*yeay* we broke up!' or 'she dumped me at last' or some of other fucking stuffs.

i really miss her and i mean it.
i miss those smiles, i miss that laughter, i miss how we shared things, everything!
total misery..

but what to do, she doesn't love me anymore.
and that's all my fault!
the consequence of the things i've done to her is this!
don't you think you're fantastic garry? you made things and you can only regret now!

just 1 week to go before you leave for Bandung, and you've left bad memories here.
how great you are, garry, don't you think?
shit!

31st of July it is. i'm leaving.

leaving on a jet plane

Robot dance

2010-07-01T23:42:00.001+07:00

this robot dance is way too cool!

Shakira - Waka Waka (This Time for Africa)

2010-07-01T00:38:00.001+07:00

love this video.
love the dance. simple but nice.
love Shakira when she's jumping.
She looks beautiful. :P

I'm bastard!

2010-06-29T17:08:00.002+07:00

I was from my girlfriend's house.
I was hoping everything would have been fine just like yesterday.
well, everything's going fine.. until.. I did a really stupid mistake.
what a total bastard I was!
I was such an asshole!
I hope everything never happened..

you may forgive, but I bet you can't forget.
stupid dumbass garry!
shit!!

The dream happened

2010-06-28T22:07:00.002+07:00

today's really awesome!
first, I've found something to write. (at last)
second, the thing I'm gonna write happened.

isn't that great? :P

I was expecting today as another usual day, sleeping on the bed for hours, playing video games for hours, having lunch and dinner, and feeling bored for the rest of the day.
however, that's not what happened..

I spent my day at my girlfriend's home.. :D
seems simple, but the fun is triple.
lol.

we did stuffs: chit chatting, telling jokes, watching movies, listening to music, playing some games etc..
but that's not what is important.
what is important is that we spent our time together.
we sure had some much fun together.
so comfortable to be around her..
4 hours are more than enough. :D

besides, I got something really special from her.
something I dreamed the other day happened just now!
haha.
thanks darling. :)
I love you. <3

my hair

2010-06-26T01:43:00.004+07:00

My current hairstyle.
it's longer than it used to be since no more school regulation.
guess I'll let it grow a little more. :D

Popping dance video

2010-06-25T16:34:00.001+07:00

this is what I call brilliant popping dance!

stuffs change

2010-06-25T15:26:00.005+07:00

well, okay..
stuffs do change.
I know that.
and just now, my friends, specifically two of them, told me that they have remade their blogs.
is it really coincidence or what?
two of them, on the same day (it's today), told me the same thing like "hey garry, you know what? I've remade my blog! check it out man and you'll see stuffs and stuffs. by the way, I also changed my url dude. relink me, okay?"
is remaking blog seasonal?
I don't know it's the season for it now.
lol.
hopefully no one will tell me the same thing for the rest of the day. :D

well, here are their blogs.
Josephine Irena: SPILLED MILK AND ROTTEN APPLE
for josephine's blog: she said it was a new born baby blog, and she is the mother. well, she sure looks like mother who has just given birth in her blog's photo. lol.

Timothy: LEAVE NOW !
for timothy's blog: sure a weird name for one's blog. are you really asking me to leave now? :D

but then, I came to think that, if they had sort of reasons to remake their blogs, how about the others?
I changed my link with so many people.
and I've not visited any of their blogs for a while.
so, I decided to see every single blog on my "links" and voila!
I found so many people who had changed their url and didn't ask me to relink them.
it's always written "Blog yang Anda cari tidak ditemukan."

in some cases, it's written "This blog is open to invited readers only. It doesn't look like you have been invited to read this blog. If you think this is a mistake, you might want to contact the blog author and request an invitation."
guess it's for private only now. :)

and some aren't updated anymore. they're left pitifully untreated, while the rest are still updated frequently, nice one.

well, guess people really do come and go, eh?
I think I'll just leave the links there, at least to remind the future me that I've ever had them as my friends. :)

such a boring life

2010-06-21T18:14:00.002+07:00

wihiyy..
it's June!
well... it's been June for 21 days..

umm..
my holiday hasn't ended yet, which is so boring.. and the inner me is gonna go "ka-boom" if this situation goes on.

nothing to do, so I decide to write. but if I do nothing, then what i am supposed to write?
if I don't write, what i'm gonna do? but if I don't do anything, it means I don't have anything to write either. and so bla.. bla.. and bla..

will it be interesting if I write about how I spend my day writing my blog?
and actually I start to think that I'm crazy because I even don't know what I am talking about.

or is it that I'm too clever that even I, myself, can't understand what i'm talking about?
seriously, this post is sure damn boring.

by the way, my friend's telling me that there will be a reunion.
date and time: 25 june 2010 at 14:00
place: St. Yoseph primary school

will anyone join??

Panda?

2010-05-27T22:02:00.004+07:00

ahh..
shit!
look what I got from sleeping late every night!
the spots around my eyes are getting darker and darker..
when my dad looked at me this morning, he was like 'what happened to your eyes?'
I was also like 'am I a panda or what?!'

ahh..
I hate this!
any suggestion about how to get rid of this thing??

precious..

2010-05-26T16:02:00.003+07:00

I'm tired of being bored!
enough of the holidays!
this is just way too much..

I can find a PIG inside me.. damn that!
I'm spending my days most by sleeping and doing nothing.

BIG *sigh~~*

this is it!
i ended up with something really good.
*grin*
perhaps, i should just go to my former drawing sensei* and start to learn drawing one more time..
but.. is this really good?

another BIG *sigh~~~*
it's really big now..

by the way, have I introduced my precious people in my life to you?
well, I just found some new persons in the neighbourhood and I guess it's great for you to know them too, regardless you care or not. :P
or maybe it's just for my future self, so that i won't forget.
I guess I've ever written about them before, whom I gave my special thanks for.
but well, people come and go, right?
so you may find them different from the people I mentioned in my previous post..

here are some..

Jesus and my family : guess these ones don't need explaination. :)

Laura : my current girlfriend. (hope she's my lifetime mate. hehe..)
the trouble maker. haha.. this girl is just so cheerful. but she's mysterious one. so hard to understand her..

Cassandra and Gracia : these girls don't change. yeah.. they are my best best friends, irreplaceable ones. the ones whom I can share everything with. :)

Jodhi : guess this one doesn't change either. :P
my best friend who I can rely on. he's definitely reliable.

Kevin : this one gave me much help too. he is most likely the one I will look for when I am stressful and have nothing to do.

Pragaya, Theo, Ridho and Timothy : my classmates whom I spent most of my school-life time with. They sure are precious to me because of that. they existed in most of my memories these years. I miss you all!

Grisella : she's my midnight friend. lol. well, means that we usually chat only at midnight. (it's hard to find someone who's still awake, you know.)
we share interests and many other stuffs. she's friendly. :)

guess only them I'm really close to right now.
well, because this holiday prevents me from finding my friends!
that's why i'm kinda mad staying at home..
urgh...

to them I stated above, I'd like to thank you. :)
you sure bring happiness to me..
thanks..

My birthday's pictures

2010-05-10T15:19:00.011+07:00

Here are some pictures taken on my birthday..
I was totally in mess. :P

funny mime

2010-05-09T12:05:00.002+07:00

hey!
I was searching for some videos when I found this extremely funny video!
I laughed like I was crazy!
this is just too funny. lol..
enjoy the video, okay?

Special Day

2010-05-09T12:03:00.000+07:00

8th of may 2010 is my special day. :)

Dashboard Confessional

2010-05-06T12:22:00.003+07:00

I started this post and I really didn't know how to write.
I've just noticed something so exciting that I can't stop shaking!
whoa..

okay, calm down Garry.
now..

I don't know what to say, this is totally awesome!
you see, Dashboard Confessional is going to show their performance here! Indonesia!
This is just too great to happen!
whoa..
I wish I could go to Jakarta..
I wanna see them.

Arghh!
Why Jakarta?

Well, Dashboard Confessional is my favorite band and I really love their songs!
and now they're holding this event in Indonesia, 29 May 2010, at 7:00 PM!
It's like 'now or never' you know.
it's like 'no way they will come here again next time'.
urghh..
I really wish I could be there.
shit!

I first noticed this event from their facebook account.
click here
do you know what really shocked me?
it's a free show!
free!
and I'm not attending!
it's really a pain in the ass!

they are coming to Indonesia..
they are coming to Indonesia..
they are coming to Indonesia!!

it's like I'm going to cry now!
arghh!

this is one the their songs I'm loving right now since it really suits me..
This is when they performed on the MTV 2 Unplugged.
Dashboard Confessional - The Sharp Hint of New Tears

On the way home, this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.
In this weather, the wind outside is biting.
It's left me feeling tired and exposed.
You've been asking me to bleed.
It seems these kinds of questions, they come too easy to you now.
And your lack of shame comes naturally.
I should not be surprised. I should have seen it sooner.

Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong.
But you're inciting others.
You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone,
'cause you're not going anywhere.

And this damp air it's fighting my defroster.
My sighs they ring victorious and fog this tinted glass.
And it's clouded and so is my head.
The hint of these new tears are sharp I try to choke them back.
But it's useless. I am useless against them.
They are beating me with ease.

On the way home this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.

Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong.
While you're inciting others.
You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone,
'Cause you're not going anywhere.

On the way home this car hears my confessions.
I think tonight I'll take the long way.

Relient K - Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

2010-05-03T16:01:00.003+07:00

I still remember..
I watched this video when I first opened youtube.com.

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics

Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Have finally begun to create so much pressure
That I'd soon blow up and

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart

And I can't let that happen again
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

---------------------------------------------

(Radio edit doesn't have this verse!)

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

---------------------------------------------

Stop right there
Thats exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been
Cause who I've been only ever made me

I'm sorry for the person I became
So sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

My collection - Forest Ghosts

2010-05-03T13:54:00.003+07:00

Here are my collection of the forest ghosts.
i'm searching for the other characters. :)

Dashboard Confessional - Belle Of The Boulevard

2010-05-03T10:52:00.004+07:00

I'm loving this song. sweet! :)
and I really love the last part of the video. :D

Down in a local bar
Out on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you from sinking
It's a long way down
It's a long way

Back like you never broke
You tell a dirty joke
He touches your leg and thinks he's getting close
For now you let him just this once
Just for now
And just like that - it's over

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

In all your silver rings
And all your silken things
That song you softly sing - is keeping you from breaking
It's a long way down
It's a long way

Back here you never loved
You shake the shivers off
You take a drink to get your courage up
Can you believe it
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

Please hold on - it's alright
Please hold on - it's alright
Please hold on

Down in a local bar
Out on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
is saving you

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard

Here I come again

2010-05-03T01:36:00.004+07:00

hi everybody..!
it's been months, no?
2 months it has been since I posted my last writing.
I am about to update this blog again.
hehe..

if you ask why, then this is the answer.
well, again, I've almost forgot about this blog.
yeah, just like what I've ever done a couple of times.
But!
there was someone who reminded me about this blog, AGAIN.
I'm such a pig head, aren't I?
yeah.
and I am about to give her a credit for this.
hehe..
she is Grisella Luivindy.
click here to see her facebook account.
drop by and add her okay?

well, i was so honored when she said that she liked my blog.
i mean, who doesn't?
besides, i'm happy because there is actually someone who still reads my blog.
lol.
i'm not boasting, okay?
this is pure because i want to credit her. :)

because of that, this blog is still continuing.
hehe..

well, who is she actually?
umm..
yahh, I just knew her a moment ago.
but actually we've ever met several times at winfield, my former english course.
hehe..
however, i've never imagined that i could be friend with her. :D
she's a nice person, i should say.
she's kind.
we talked a lot about stuffs.
overall, she's really a nice person.
talk to her and you'll know. :D

I don't know that because of my blog I can have more friends.
love you blogger.com!
rofl. :DD

remember to visit her facebook account okay?

by the way..
it's time to talk about my life.
well, life is still as pathetic as usual.
but it isn't that bad after all.
and I start to think that my luck is somehow changing.
to be better of course.

ohh.
before i forget: 26th of April 2010 was the time when I've officially graduated from my senior high school and now is moving to my university life.
lol.
this is so exciting!
and now i'm having my 3 months of holiday without doing anything.
you see, i need not study anymore.
i've passed also the university's entrance exam after all.
hehe..
however, it's kinda boring, yes.
no doubt..

and yea, 29th of April was my birthday and you know what?
i guess you don't.
well, there was a moment I can never ever forget.
I will not post it here.
I'll post it on the other post.
I want to include some photos, but they are not with me right now.
so.. maybe some other time? :)

umm..
well, perhaps this is it for today..
again, I'd like to thank Grisella Luivindy for reminding me about this blog. :)
bye all.

My school life

2010-02-24T15:25:00.003+07:00

I'm gonna leave this blog for a while and write on SESAT - IPA SATU ANGKATAN 52 for some time.
My life is still long, yet my school life is approximately 3 months left.
So, I guess I'll just write more about my school life than my own life for this 3 months.
hope you'll still enjoy it.

New blog

2010-02-23T22:21:00.004+07:00

just made a new blog!
it is a blog from our class "IPA 1".

here is the link.
SESAT - IPA SATU ANGKATAN 52
you may also find the link on the "LINKS" at the right side of the page.
ENJOY!

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

2010-02-09T14:59:00.002+07:00

Just found a really cool video!
'Jason Mraz - I'm Yours' by Cindy Tantarica
drop by and see.

here is the link.

Jason Mraz-I'm Yours

lucky 7

2010-02-07T11:47:00.002+07:00

7 days to go.
fiuhh..
nothing else i can say.
well, at least my blog is updated.
lol.. :D

counting days

2010-02-06T14:55:00.000+07:00

counting days before valentine's day.

8 days to go.

valentine's day

2010-02-05T19:31:00.000+07:00

9 days to go before valentine's day.

UNPAR

2010-02-05T19:09:00.003+07:00

hi everyone..

let's not waste the time.
Just wanna tell everybody that I passed UNPAR's entrance exam!
Wow!
that's so great!
I was stunned for a moment and totally speechless when I saw my name written down.
it's just so unbelievable!
really thank God for that..
now I've been officially accepted to study at UNPAR.
wow.

Now that my post's label for this blog is no longer labeled as "school".. it's "university"!
lol. :D

I would like to thank my seniors from UNPAR who had helped me improving my drawing skill.
thank you all!
thank my dad and my sis.
and thanks to my friends who had encouraged me.
CIA, SAN, VIERA, PRAGAYA, BUNGA, MELIANA, LYDIA, THERESIA, ULI, OKTORINI, RIDHO, THEO, TIMOTHY, MARULI, DEWI, JESSICA, and the others.

Appreciate that so much!
about half year left before I go and study there.
both happiness and sadness are struggling in me.
*sigh*

should I call it as "leaving my current life" or "facing my real life"?
wew.

by the way, I start to think that my blog has become weirder and weirder.
I start to use phrases and idioms that are not even in english dictionary.
wew.
I guess my english has become worse and worse.
:|

let's burn the midnight oil!

NIM

2010-02-01T17:15:00.003+07:00

ahh..
it's been weeks.
hello readers, hello world.
I finally have a chance to write again.

FYI, I've been playing ikariam again. :D
however, I now play it on Indonesian server.
here is the link..
IKARIAM

by the way, I'd just had the entrance test from "Universitas Katolik Parahyangan", so-called "UNPAR".
it's pretty hard!
I doubt whether or not will I be accepted to study there. :(
but I can just pray, hoping that God would help me. :)
and He sure will. :D
I'm waiting for the announcement which will be told on 6th February.
can't wait.

I am both scared and excited. wew.
since I'll study at Bandung if I am accepted, which means.. I'll stay on her hometown. :)
She'll be back, and then I can be with her. lol.. :D
what a dream.
I think that's all I can share for the first day of February.

just need to pray and have faith in Jesus!
ciao..

P. S. Valentine's day is coming, isn't it?

Christmas present

2010-01-13T19:54:00.003+07:00

by the way, I received something from her on the Christmas' present-exchanging day.
here is the thing.
It's simple but I like it!

First post of the year

2010-01-12T22:32:00.005+07:00

Arghh!
I missed the first day of New Year!
whereas I was aiming for that day to write my first post this year.
I even didn't sleep when New Year's eve just for this day.
seems like it's impossible now.
well, I totally forgot about my blog when New Year came, since I couldn't take my eyes off my cellphone's screen because New Year's greetings kept coming.
I was totally busy to reply those text messages.
wew.
then I must wait for another year.
really boring.

So, today, 12th January 2010, I write my first post of the year.
horray!
'January 2010' has been added to my "archives".
good beginning, really.
hehe. :D

by the way, thanks to Theresia that she reminded me about my blog.
lol.. :D
She is one of my readers and noticed that I didn't write any new posts.
that's when I remembered.
ckck.

well, actually I don't really have something to write about.
Just to start my January 2010's post.
hehe.. :)
perhaps just this for now.
I'll add some more when I get some inspiration.

ciao everyone.. and have a nice day..

Another Day at Sun Plaza

2009-12-28T01:07:00.003+07:00

greetings, everyone..
I write this post when the clock is pointing at 1:11 AM.
well, that means it's midnight now.
:D

28th December 2009 it is; however, I'm writing about the event on 27th December 2009.
So, today..(I guess yesterday will be better since I've passed 1 hour and 11 minutes. lol.) I went to Sun Plaza (again).
wow.. that's new.
yeahh. you wish.
Going to Sun Plaza is never a new thing to do.
you can find Medanese (+ 15 years old) who never go to Sun?
Cut my head off!
lol.

I'm kidding, okay?
It sure will be scary to find a thousand people banging at my front door in order to cut my head off after finding someone who never goes to Sun tomorrow.
:D

here is how it was planned.

firstly, Jodhi and I planned to spend the day by going to Cambridge and having lunch there.
Well, in addition, we got Laurence and Dewi joining us too.

Secondly, we would continue our trip to Sun to hang out together and sight-see things.

then last, we would go back to our own lovely home, and everyone would be happy.. forever after.

well.. don't you think that it's kinda cliche?

unfortunately, life isn't that simple, isn't it?
plan never goes smoothly.

so, here is how it happened.
but before, I'd like to introduce everyone who was involved in this event.

Garry : myself. well, need not to put any further information, right? you should have known me, I wish. lol.

Jodhi : the driver. lol. I mean, the one who gave us rides during the event, the coolest guy in this group, ever! he was the one who asked for this hanging-out thing, yet didn't care about it. lol. nice one!

Dewi : how will I describe her? she is totally hard to describe. lol. just find her at her blog, okay?
you can find her blog at LINKS on the right side of the screen below CBOX or click here.

and last..

Laurence : a little girl (totally little, I'm serious. lol.) who I've known since primary school. she's cheerful, nice. she has big sense of humor. my sister. :D

so..
Jodhi and I planned to go to Cambridge along with Dewi and Laurence.
everything seemed quite right until Laurence told us that she couldn't join because she had just had a problem with her father.
the situation then automatically didn't allow her to go.
Dewi who was supposed to be accompanied by Laurence once said that she wouldn't join if Laurence didn't join.
Well, did it mean Jodhi and I would have a GAY date?
that's bloody no!

the problem was then solved when Dewi told me that she's bored staying at home and wanted to go away from that bloody place and decided to join us in spite of Laurence's absence.
The situation became worse when she headed right to Sun Plaza.
well, I've told you, our first destination was Cambridge!
lol.. :D
as gentlemen, would we let Dewi to be alone there?
Of course no! (well, gentlemen don't say "of course no!" as I do. rofl)
we then passed Cambridge and headed right to Sun.
a couple minutes after, Laurence said that she could join (good news), but she had to bring her brother along.
well, no problem..
by the way, I should now introduce you all to a new comer.

Dicky : Laurence's brother. quite talkative, cheerful like his sister, a new comer of the group just so Laurence could join. :)

Dewi arrived at 2, Laurence and her brother arrived at 2.30, we arrived not even earlier. :D
We have the car! (well, it belongs to Jodhi. I mean, we got the car!)
but still we were late.
so, what's the problem?
ever see Sun's parking lot?
yes?
you'll know then.
hehe..
wow, we have arrived at 2, but the searching of the parking place took most of the time.
1 hour of going around the lot was totally boring.
urgh..
1 hour of waiting for Dewi and half hour for Laurence and her brother was upsetting enough, I know.. since we were the one who made the plan.

okay, let's not talk about that one.

as soon as we arrived there, Jodhi and I had forgot about our lunch.
we headed right to Starbucks and didn't talk about our lunch anymore!
really, we forgot that we hadn't eaten.
I even doubt Jodhi recognized that we didn't have our lunch.
lol..

then, 4 hours of lol-ing around, walking around, sight-seeing around, joking around, and so on.
that's what ran smoothly. :)

at 7 P.M, we went back to our own living place and the event was done!
Not really special actually, just like another story at Sun.
But I'm on top mood of EXAGGERATING. lol.
that's why I make this event to sound like a really big event.
hehe..

end of the post.
ciao..

Just For Fun

2009-12-27T00:11:00.001+07:00

pailakme, tapogina ngapel khi cabogina e chu.Chu bo lang..

Tapo: Beib,Wa ae ho lu khua cekai mikya..

Cabo: hamiklae beib??

Tapo: Emm,esai jib pangkeng o?

Cabo: Esai....

Tapo: Esai so mui o??

Cabo: esai....

Tapo: esai kham thanga o?

Cabo: Esai....

Tapo: Esai kham hue o??

Cabo: Esai...

Tapo: Tongkim, walang jib khi selimut yah..

Cabo: Okhe!(ane huahi)

Tapo: lu cai wa ai ho lu khua hamik bo?

Cabo: Emcai a..hamiklai si?

Tapo: Lai, lu gim w e chiu

Cabo: Trus ai cumik koq leh?

Tapo: lu khua heng, wa e sin chiu pio e tok huei e lho..hahaha
Glow in the dark e lo...

Cabo: Emay kong e lu....!!

Hehe..just for fun

A day at blu Apple

2009-12-26T22:31:00.007+07:00

hey everyone.
I'm updating again. :)

Nothing much today.
I just spent my time at Sun Plaza (most Medan people do this during their long holiday. lol.) with Gracia Pricillia, Cassandra Etania and our just-arrived-Medan-and-wanted-us-to-accompany-her-to-Sun-Plaza friend, Joey Viera. :D

We did lots of lol-ing around and here are some pictures taken during the time at Blu Apple.

by the way, I feel something really weird about her.
Is she having some problems?
but just as usual, she never tells me.
I can't do much then.
I've tried to ask her, but she still refused to tell.
well, I just hope you could solve your problems fast, dear.
or I hope what I am feeling was wrong.
huft.

My Love Letter (Forget About It)

2009-12-25T20:20:00.007+07:00

I'm alone on this Christmas day, but who says it's bad?
what I did all day was thinking, day dreaming, and everything done with mind..
and at night, as my PC has been fixed, I tried to search back everything it had ever saved since I've never seen what's inside for really really long time.
and because of this circumstance, I found a really cool stuff, a file with Rich Text Format.

I was searching some pictures from folder which I used to save pictures in.
I opened "my computer" icon on the desktop, I saw one of the hard disk drive named "Data (D:)" and I double clicked it.
there was a folder named "my doc", where I saved all my files there.
I slowly pointed my pointer to the folder and I clicked on it.
I was trying to double click it, but did it too slow that I happened to rename the folder.
that was hard since my last contact with the PC. lol. :)
I tried it one more time, and I succeeded.
I needed a second to realize that I'm not used to see the scene of the PC anymore.

then, I moved my pointer to "my picture" folder before I realized that I actually got lots of text files with Ms. Word and Rich Text Format in "my doc" folder.
I then observed each of the files.
I got "another blog" with Rich Text Format, "Ant" with Ms. Word Format, "Graphic1" with CorelDraw Graphic Format, and more.
Most of them were my assignments.

and then I laughed when I saw some files named "kopekan", "kopekan 2", "kopekan 3" and so on. lol.
that's my dirty little secret..
and I couldn't believe that I saved it!
really unbelievable.
I couldn't even stop laughing. :D

I continued my work, and I froze when I found this file.
with "Microsoft Word Document" Format, size "47 KB", it was named by me as "love letter".
If I'm not mistaken, this is what I wrote to her, Vivi Rihanty.
a letter which I gave her on 14th February 2009, a day I could never forget.
if I'm not mistaken...

I double clicked on it, and here is what is written there.

Dear Vivi,
As you open and read this letter, it means that you'll see me being serious again. I know I do lots of jokes, but what I'll tell you here are all serious. Please don't laugh. Yeah, I know, I'm not really expert in writing love letter. =)
Well, I won't talk much here. One thing for sure which you should know, and I'm sure that you've known it too, is that I LOVE YOU. For real, I truly love you. This is me, the real me. I just can't tell you how much I care about you.
So..
I write this poem, presented to a girl who knows how to be loved and cared.

"Do you remember that day?
The day when we first met
When there's no word to say
And silence hadn't passed just yet

When I could have blinded my eyes
Which might see you still
When I could then realize
They could know your will

When I could have tied my tongue
Which should say your beauty
When I could have just sung
About them in every melody

When I could have slammed my ears
Which would hear that voice
When I could just feel fear
To lose it in the crowd's noise

Ah, there you are
You've been so pretty
As I traveled back that far
I now know I'm that lucky

And if I just love you
With other things I never mind
I've committed to ask you
Would you be my valentine?"

Whatever your answer is, I'll accept it. Whatever your answer is, I'll always still be yours.

With love,

Garry

P.S. This is my first love letter and I dedicate it to someone who deserves it.

There was time when my tears forced to flow, but I soon held it inside.
these tears wanted to flow not because of the broken heart I once felt, but because of my memories about things I once had.
I miss that time, the time when I spent my precious time thinking about what to write.
I looked for words which I thought might impress her and spent almost 2 hours to write this simple love letter.
I was such a fool, wasn't I?
Yeah, and I feel funny about the love letter.
most of the words are ridiculous!
lol. :D
well, if you think I'm sad, I'm not sad.
perhaps I WAS sad.
but I'm not.
believe me.

Besides, I love someone else now, someone who actually deserves it.
So, why do I have to feel sad about it?
I even smiled when I read over it.
I guess words won't change people's mind, will it?
attitude will.
and what I'm working on is to impress my beloved one with my attitude, not with those silly words anymore.

Problems teach lessons, don't they?

By the way, isn't that "always still be yours" word kinda exaggerating? :P

Another Story

2009-12-25T18:54:00.003+07:00

I do realize that the posts which I published recently have very bad grammar and vocabulary.
well, I wrote those posts not in very good mood.
I still wrote that anyway just so that everything which ever remained in my head could remain forever in this blog.
compared to my brain, it's a sure thing that computer does better job in remembering. :D
so, I really beg your apologize if you don't feel comfortable when reading my blog.

however, my mood is on top today!
well, that does not mean that my grammar and vocabulary will be perfect.
I'm still an ordinary Asian boy with ordinary knowledge of English, lack of it if I may say. :P

So, still in the spirit of Christmas, once again I wish you all love, peace, and joy!
5 days to go before the New Year comes.
And this is what is exciting!
hehe..
I will have BBQ party with my friends, and I'm sure that that's gonna be extremely fun!
Can't wait!
yeay yeay!!

by the way, my PC has been fixed, totally fixed.
great news, since playing games is now available again. lol.
well, I have a notebook from which I can play games.
I just am not brave enough to take risk to poison my notebook with such damn unimportant stuffs (I play those unimportant stuffs though. :D).

that means we should once again welcome Garry-who-is-always-lazy-in-doing-his-assignment-because-he-has-lots-of-games-to-play. lol.
I really worry about what kind of human I will be in in future.
That lol-ing thing is sure a fake thing.
*sigh*

argh! no time for being desperate!
Jesus will always bless my way, I'm sure.
Just like what is written in Matthew 6 : 34,
34 "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Merry Christmas, once again

2009-12-25T00:26:00.002+07:00

Merry Christmas everyone.
May your life be better, full of love, peace, joy and blessing.
and Happy Birthday Papa Jesus Christ!
This is really exiting!
Your birthday always brings joy and love among us.
thanks. :D

by the way, as this Christmas comes, my blog has been 1 year old.
time runs so fast, eh?
a year of telling stories and problems, with many dilemmas and problem-solving has brought me to this day, a day when I have become maturer in facing problems, more self-confident in having opportunities, open-minded in seeing people's opinion about how to solve problems, etc.

thanks to all of my friends who are taking part in my life.
your kindness remains in my heart, always and forever.
thanks..

once again i'd like to say : MERRY CHRISTMAS !
enjoy your day.

present exchanging

2009-12-24T01:45:00.003+07:00

before I forget, I want to tell you that I'll have present-exchanging again this christmas.
just like the previous christmas.
what is different is that i got an additional person who i'll exchange the present with.
that's the "tiger". :D
Hope everyone will like it.

christmas eve ; tiger and panda

2009-12-24T00:25:00.005+07:00

hi everybody.
and hi garry in the future who might be reading this.
how's your life gone?
my life is going fine, if you wish to know.

i start to write this just when the christmas eve is beyond the edge.
*11.57 PM, 23rd December 2009*
3 minutes to go and we'll all have the day before Jesus Christ's birthday.
everyone whose birthday is on 24th December, I wish you happy birthday and good luck.
have your day, friends.

whose birthday is on 25th December, be grateful because of your same birthday with Jesus Christ.
perhaps you'll get more blessing than us who don't have the same birthday with Him.
Amen.

so, where are you all going this christmas eve?
do you all have plan?
may it run well, then.
wish you all luck and blessing this christmas.
this christmas should be a great day for all of us, especially Christians.
Jesus was born?
that's totally a big deal which we should always remember.

well, it's different with my situation here.
i have no plan for both christmas eve and christmas day.
who will i spend my christmas eve with?
who will i spend my christmas day with?

mother's day was passed horribly, passed without my mom by my side.
i'll have a blue christmas eve and christmas day, without any accompany.

but i should say that i'm lucky, i still have one.
Jesus Christ will accompany me.
that's what is important.
i'll never be alone forever.
thank God, thank Jesus.
I love You very much.
I can wait no longer.

may this christmas be Your attendance for the second time, in my life.
I miss You.
I'm feeling so lonely now.
Please come to me Jesus.
:)

well, actually I want to state my today's story here..I mean, today's problem.
but I guess Jesus has swept away all my problems and worries, since I have no will to talk about the problem anymore.
thanks, Jesus.

well, as my dominant motivation is romance motivation, now I'd like to tell about my lovelife.
Umm.

(the story below is only dedicated to garry in the future. you may read it, but i'm sure you won't understand it. only garry in the future and I, and God who know what it means. I write this down just so that I can always remember about how my day passes, not purposely share it to others. so I beg your apologize.)

new story and new hope, new life with new joy, new day about new personality.
It's a story about "tiger and panda".
2 animals with personality, different from fact.
tiger is supposed to be fierce, cruel, and cold-blooded.
panda is supposed to be calm, social, yet fierce in its defense.

now, think of the opposites.
and you'll know where it will take you to.
do you feel butterflies in your stomach?
you must be feeling it, I bet.
because, 1 and half year of waiting worth a thousand unimportant days of being curious.

after all, the 9th letter is the panda, and the tiger is the one to word-with-3-meaning.

I hope the day when garry in the future will be reading this is the day when the tiger has become the panda('s).

I really don't want you to be confused.
just get used to it, because some posts of mine might only be reminders for me in the future, not to be read and understood.

garry, I hope you remember..

my sister's birthday

2009-12-09T15:08:00.002+07:00

Today is my sister's birthday.
happy birthday sis!
may God bless you always.
hehe..
by the way, 2 days before, her friends and I had just tricked her.
lol.
that's so much fun!
she's so innocent for not knowing what we're up to (or perhaps she's too easy to be fooled since she's a really fool! rofl. kidding sis. :D )
so, here are some people who were involved in this trick-making party. :))

Sister Herlina
Brother Salim
Sister Jubot (well, I don't know her real name, since what I heard all day was her nick. sorry sis. :) )
And just FYI, Sister Herlina and Brother Salim has engaged and will soon be married.
congratulation!

note

2009-12-04T20:34:00.003+07:00

I just posted a note to facebook, on which after I take a look or two, I love very much. hehe..

here is the link..

Love is weird

my work arts

2009-12-03T15:02:00.004+07:00

Right now, I'm crazy about my work arts.
well, I've been working on these things for so long.
I just begin to like it lately.
hehe..
so, I kinda post some of them to share, and of course, a little bit show off.
lol..
but I realize that they are not perfect enough, and I know I've made lots of mistakes.
or maybe they do not look good from the very first place. :D

So, feel free to give mean comments, because I'll accept those comments.
at least, I can learn from that.

here are some of them.
and fyi, they were taken using my Nokia 5220 XpressMusic's camera since I don't have camera with high megapixel or scanner.
so, they may look blur and low-quality.

Enough

2009-12-03T14:04:00.002+07:00

I guess she doesn't like me waiting for her.
then, fine.
I give her up.
that's enough..